beside this empty bed
God never leaves her side
why was it within herself
she always had to hide

i hope there's no pharmacy in heaven
she'll find it if it's there
no pills in heaven will she want
will always be my prayer

the next time i see her
she will be free
free from the drugs
free from the need

they're a powerful thing
these drugs that we sell
they can strengthen your body
or put you through HELL

my prayer is that no one else
will go through this pain
so mother's death
will not be in vain

no one could put a number
on the years that she just slept
not knowing we were there
not knowing we wept

change for us...
for our children...
for yourself... we pled

she never listened
and now she is DEAD

WAIT...

God chose not to take her
with us she would stay
leaving us all
in total dismay

would she pay for her choices
was suffering in store
will she feel the agony she caused us
and more

there are so many things
i'll never understand
but one things for sure
God sticks to His plan

question Him not
He'll show us in time
have faith in Him
and He'll calm our minds

mother's choice

what would she choose, it seemed as if her whole life was hanging on by a thread...her family waiting to see if she would come back to us or if the scissors would cut the only thing left that was holding us together - this would be told by the decision she would make...

she couldn't understand that even though the once beautiful quilt had been torn, ripped and in some areas shredded, we were waiting for her with needles and thread if given the chance...

she was as though the pin cushion and we were all the pins drawn to her side...she had become the thimble - callased, hard and as if stone-like to protect the inside that was so delicate...we were waiting like a tape measurer to take the small steps to reach our goal of having her back...please let us mend you, for you can't do it alone